I got some more good news yesterday. Dr. Kelly, the cervical cancer specialist, called me and told me that I am scheduled for my surgery next Wednesday. I went for my pre-op bloodwork and x-ray today so now I just have to wait until the 16th. I am so excited and I can’t wait for them to cut me open. Take all that crap out! I don’t need or want it anyway. God, I can’t wait! So, that’s all that’s new with me. How are you? How’s your momma doin’? What’s new in your life?

Today I went to go see the Cervical Cancer specialist, Dr. Kelly, and finally got some good news. Not good news as in, you don’t have cancer you have a cold, but good news as in the cancer hasn’t spread too far. Let’s just start ot the beginning and go from there. My husband and I showed up at the doctor’s office, filled out the 100 sheets of paper work and commenced the long wait until my name was called. When they called my name they showed us into a room and the nurse told me that the doctor was going to take a quick look at my cervix and to go ahead and strip from the waist down. My husband did NOT want to be in the room for this so he went back out to the lobby until this part was over. It’s silly but he doesn’t want to be there just because there is a stranger whos hand will be up his wife’s hoo-hoo. lolol It is weird if you think about it like that! I try to just think about the fact that this stranger is going to make me better. He’s got his hand up my hoo-hoo to find the bad things so he can make them go away. He just took a quick look so it wasn’t really that bad. The bad part is what happened next. He told me that he was going to do a RECTAL EXAM on me and before I could get the word NOOOOOO out of my mouth I got a finger in my hoo-hoo and a thumb up my butt. I think I will be mentally scarred for life because of that. It was traumatic!!!!

Finally it was the Q&A part of the appointment. I had a notebook full of questions Chris and I wrote down in the past few days so we were prepared for him. Dr. Kelly told me that the MRI I had Friday afternoon showed him everything he wanted to know. The type of Cervical Cancer I have is called Squamous Cell Cervical Carcinoma. The clinical stage that it is at is 1B1, which is a good thing. This means that the cancer hasn’t been there long so it hasn’t had enough time to spread out. It is only 3cm deep and it is only infecting my cervix and part of my uterus. THANK GOD! So, the next step is surgery. I will have to have a Radical Hysterectomy and a Radical Trachelectomy (removal of the cervix). Basically, this means that he will take out my cervix, uterus, part of the vagina, and all the lymph-nodes in the surrounding area, but leave my ovaries intact. If the removed lymph-nodes show no sign of cancer then that’s it! I’m done! The cancer has had it’s ass kicked! If there are signs of cancer in the removed lymph-nodes then I will have to have Radiation treatments as well as chemotherapy. THAT would kill any remaining cancer cells and hopefully not damage too many of my healthy cells in the process.

I will spend 2 days in the hospital, take 6 weeks to recover, and then be healthy as a horse! Hopefully anyways. =] The one thing that has kept me sane and helped me stay calm is my husband. Without him I would be a basket case and would never leave my room. Since the MOMENT I told him that I have cancer he hasn’t left my side. I will always be grateful for that. He is so wonderful to me and so supportive and I would NOT have been able to even make it this far without him. I love you baby!

Well, that’s the news so far! Tomorrow Dr. Kelly is supposed to call me and let me know when my surgery will take place and I can’t wait. I would be so happy if it would be for Wednesday. Crap, i’d go right now! I mean, no cancer and no more period! WOO HOO!! Well, as soon as I know something i’ll let ya know! Until then, i’ll go take me another pain pill. *drool*

Well, what can I say. Yesterday was the worst day of my life, so far. I was planning on just chillin with my Granny and going to do my pre-op blood work but it didn’t go the way I planned. My coochie doctor’s nurse called me and told me that he wanted to see me immediately to give me my test results from the biopsies that he took. When they won’t tell you over the phone then you know that it’s something bad. lolol So, me and Granny hopped in the car and hauled some arse there. Of course we had to sit in the damn waiting foom for a while and that’s never fun. Especially with my Granny because she has absolutely NO patience. Finally the nurse came out and called my name, thank God, and stuck us in a room to wait for the doctor. Why do they do that? You wait in the waiting room for ever when finally they call you back only to put you in another room to wait for ever. The whole process makes no sense to me.

Anyways, the doctor finally came in the room and sat on his little stool. I was expecting to tell me that I have a severe case of Cervical Dysplasia and then tell me what he planned to do about it, but boy was I wrong. Instead he tells me that I have Cervical Cancer. I was absolutely stunned and shocked. I mean, what the hell are you supposed to say to that? I just said, “o.k.”. Then of course I cried and my Granny cried. That was pretty much my day. Cry cry cry cry cry. Hopefully I am done with the crying. Now i’m just depressed. lolol I guess that’s expected. I’ll just go take one of my “happy pills” and perk up.

That’s what’s new with my life. How about you? What’s new in your’s?

Wow! I feel really bad that all of my newest posts have been about my medical problems but this is my site so i’ll talk about whatever I want! Na na na na na na! I’ll go ahead and get the medical crap out of the way quick, I promise. So, I had to go to the Gyno today for a Colposcopy. Don’t worry, i’m not going to make you have to look that up. =] A Colposcopy is a procedure in which the vagina and the surface of the uterine cervix is examined through a lighted microscope (colposcope) for signs of cervical dysplasia or cancer. Doc also took 5 biopsies and is sending them to the lab to be tested. I’ll find out by Tuesday what the results are. Let me just say that I would rather bathe in a tub full of salt water with thousands of tiny paper cuts all over my body than have to go through all that crap again today. Anyhoo! Enough medical crap. What am I, 80 years old?

On a lighter note I am going to be getting a laptop soon! Actually, within the next two weeks! Yay for me! I won’t be a laptop virgin anymore. Plus, it’s wireless so I can work on some sites from the comfort of my living room couch. How awesome is that!?!? I am such a geek, I know. My idea of a wild Friday night out is a trip to Staples. I love that place. Pens and post-its galore! *drool*

Also, my husband and I have some new sites that I can’t wait to use the laptop to work on. You should check them out! We have a butt-load so there is something for everyone! Here are a few to look at:

Readers Unbound – If you love books like we love books, check out Readers Unbound. You know I love vampire books and I wrote a review of Sex, Lies, and Vampires by Katie MacAlister, so go read that!

451 Magazines – Nothing all that special to see here, just popular magazines at discount prices.

In Dictionary – One of the more popular sites we built recently. We built it just to support our writing sites, a place to look up words and definitions for your writing. It gets a bunch of traffic from Ask Jeeves and MSN!

Literature Vault – We’ve added a ton of stories by classic authors and we’ll be adding many more so you’ll want to bookmark this one. Especially useful to students who have to read this stuff for class.

Writer’s Cave – used to be a forum that Chris bought but we moved all the users over to Writing Forums so we turned this one into a bookstore for writers.

I’ll have more for you next time I update.

Well, i’m going to go take a pain pill, get ready for bed and dream that my Gyno got to see what it feels like to have a Colposcopy and have biopsies taken from his most intimate parts. Mmmmmm… pain pill. *drools a little* I told you before! I am not addicted! *shakes*

I am getting the distinct impression that my cats don’t really like me. Why do I think this? Well, if they did like me then they wouldn’t leave hair balls in where I walk. I know it’s going to be a bad day when I wake up, go downstairs and get a nice warm and mushy hair ball between my toes. Maybe I’m wrong! Maybe they hack them up there because they think I’ll see it better there. Maybe they think that they are doing me a favor? Maybe hair balls are the currency of the cat world and they are paying me for taking care of them! If they really want to do me a favor why not hack it up in the toilet and go ahead and flush it. Or not! Flushing isn’t mandatory! It sure would be nice though.

On a completely different subject, I get to go to my doctor tomorrow and get my Depo shot. Yay. Am I the only person whose arm is completely useless for 2 days after the shot? It just hangs there like a limp noodle. Maybe I’m just a sissy. Also, I’ll be asking the doctor for some more pain pills. Yippee! Pain pills! I’m not an addict, I swear! No, I’m not trembling! I just need them. I have to have them! *shakes*