Now i’m left at a stand-off though since i’m not sure where to take my site now. I’m not a Mother so I can’t do a “Mommy Blog”, i’m not some computer specialist that can talk about the techie stuff, and that leaves me scratching my head. I guess until I figure out what I want my site to be when it grows up i’ll just start back at the beginning all over again. Can’t be THAT bad… can it?

Sooooooooo, HI! My name is Aeryn. How are you today?

*Twas the month before Christmas*
*When all through our land,*
*Not a Christian was praying*
*Nor taking a stand.*
*See the PC Police had taken away,*
*The reason for Christmas – no one could say.*
*The children were told by their schools not to sing,*
*About Shepherds and Wise Men and Angels and things.*
*It might hurt people’s feelings, the teachers would say*
* December 25th is just a ‘ Holiday ‘.*
*Yet the shoppers were ready with cash, checks and credit*
*Pushing folks down to the floor just to get it!*
*CDs from Madonna, an X BOX, an I-pod*
*Something was changing, something quite odd! *
*Retailers promoted Ramadan and Kwanzaa*
*In hopes to sell books by Franken & Fonda.*
*As Targets were hanging their trees upside down*
* At Lowe’s the word Christmas – was nowhere to be found.*
*At K-Mart and Staples and Penny’s and Sears*
*You won’t hear the word Christmas; it won’t touch your ears.*
*Inclusive, sensitive, Di-ver-si-ty*
*Are words that were used to intimidate me..*
*Now Daschle, Now Darden, Now Sharpton, Wolf Blitzen*
*On Boxer, on Rather, on Kerry, on Clinton !*
*At the top of the Senate, there arose such a clatter*
*To eliminate Jesus, in all public matter.*
*And we spoke not a word, as they took away our faith*
* Forbidden to speak of salvation and grace*
*The true Gift of Christmas was exchanged and discarded*
*The reason for the season, stopped before it started.*
*So as you celebrate ‘Winter Break’ under your ‘Dream Tree’*
*Sipping your Starbucks, listen to me.*
*Choose your words carefully, choose what you say*
*Shout MERRY CHRISTMAS , not Happy Holiday !*

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Now, I know that many people out there don’t believe in taking medication for something like this but not everyone agrees with Tom Cruise or his loony band of alien worshipers. Talk about people who need to be on medication…sheesh! I’m all for trying to keep my body pure but not at the cost of my happiness. Since I went on my daily dose of HAPPY I have noticed a change in myself and my attitude towards people and life in general. Even some friends and family have noticed a difference… that I seem more like my old self pre-cancer. (If you wanna read about all THAT then just check out my about me page. Trust me though, it’s depressing shat.) Let me add here that only a very select few even knew that I had gone on anti-depressants so they noticed a change in me all by their lonesome selves.

Of course I still have bad days, or “down time” as I lovingly refer to it. Some people refer to these moments as “have you taken your pill yet today?” days. Such sweet and loving farkers. =] The whole reason behind this rambling post is that recently i’ve been thinking about stopping the anti-depressants and going it all my myself, but after accidentally missing my pill for two days in a row I have changed my mind. O_O I can easily feel the difference in myself. For example, I have started back taking them and today was my second day back on and I feel….. strange. Right now I would love nothing more than to go lay down and fall asleep wearing a perma-frown on my face. I hate feeling this way and i’m sure you will agree with me on that.

So, in conclusion to this long rant – but still NOWHERE close to the famous Chris Crocker, yeah you know who that is, Leave Britney Alone rant – I Heart my anti-depressants. How can I not when they help ME be ME with a REAL smile on my face instead of faking it. Nobody likes a faker. ;]