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Hello! How is everyone doing today? I am perfect! I went to see my CCS (cervical cancer specialist) Monday and I got some decent news. I really didn’t learn that much but I am still happy about what I DID learn. I learned that…

1.) My ovaries are dead, dried up, useless. He tried to save them but the radiation treatments were so invasive that there wasn’t much hope to save them in the first place. At least he tried!

2.) I now have thin bones. I have to go have a Bone Density Test ran to find out just how thin they are. Then, i’ll find out if I need to take extra medications to help make them stronger. It all depends on just how thin they are.

3.) I have 1 month off! I don’t have to have anything but the bone test done for a month! It doesn’t really coun’t because it’s such a short and simple test. No needles! Woo Hoo!

The appointment was actually pretty funny. I haven’t seen this doctor in a while so he was asking all sorts of questions to catch up on how I was doing and what all has happened in the past few weeks. I told him that the only odd thing was that I has a seizure or two - no big deal. He asked what happened, I told him, then he scolded me like I was his little kid. lolol When I told him that I didn’t go with the paramedics to the hospital that night and have a MRI done he about had a come-apart. Telling me that my windpipe could have closed, I could have vomited and choked, blah blah blah. You know how “parents” can be. lolol I let it all go in one ear and out the other while I laughed. =] I had to PROMISE him that if it happened again I would go straight to the hospital and have a brain scan thingy done. I can’t remember the name of the test he said but I had to swear before he would talk about anything else. It was so sweet! It just showed how much he cared. He sees me as a person, not just another patient. I love doctors like that! I just wanted to hug him!

I was also asked about the damn hot flashes I have now. Because of this and the dead ovaried he put me on a hormone pill called PREMPRO. Hopefully it will help! I am sick and tired of freezing my butt off one moment then to feel like i’m burning in the deepest pitts in hell. I live in a townhouse so our bedroom is upstairs and as we all know, heat rises. This means that it’s hotter upstairs so I can’t sleep up there with my husband. I’ve been on the couch for weeks now and I can’t wait until I can sleep next to my snoring husband again. =] Plus, i’m having bathroom troubles still so I go to the bathroom ALOT. Also, when I feel the need to go I only have seconds to get my ass on a toilet before I crap my pants. Yes, it has happened. I grew a stinky brown tail in my pants one day when the bathroom was too far away. I should just strap a toilet to my ass and carry some toilet paper in my purse. Slowly but surely I am getting back to normal. Whatever “normal” means. =]

My Bone Density test is this comming Wednesday and I can’t wait. I just want to go and get it over with so I can start my month long vacation. I’m not scared or nervous about it at all. There are no needles for this test. I know this for a fact because I know 2 people who have had this done. It should just be something like an x-ray. My mother had this test done and so did my mother-in-law, Beth. Beth had to have it done because she has cancer too. She was diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia last year and had kicked it’s BUTT into remission. You Go Girl! She has been so great to me and so helpful. Because of her I have had someone here I can ask questions to, someone who knows and understands what all I am going through because she has been there - done that. I can NEVER repay her. No words or gift will ever bee good enough. =]

I also got myself a new sex toy. No, it’s not REALLY a sex toy. My radiation doctor told me that because of all of the internal radiation I have a LOT of scar tissue up in there. Since scar tissue draws up, or shrink, I was hiven a medical “tool” to help prevent the closure of my love tunnel. The “tool” is called a Vaginal Dialator, but basically it’s a hard-ass dildo made of plastic. I will have to use this thing for 10 min. every day for THE REST OF MY LIFE. If I don’t then I will close up , forever. That means no more sex. I can’t let that happen! =] I will have to take a picture of this important and very technical medical “tool” so I can post it here. You just have to SEE this thing! I almost laughed when he pulled this sucker out. I thought he was kidding! Maybe I should name it. Yeah! I’ll need your help. What would YOU name it??? Everyone better comment and let me know their choices. Shame on you if you don’t! I mean, I have CANCER and all I am asking is for your help in naming my Coochie Expander! I could name it SuperCooch and have a cute little red Superman cape made for it! Let me know what all you come up with! Give me lots of choices! =]