I wish there was some way that I could explain to you just how happy I am today. Why am I so happy, you ask? Well, today was my last External Radiation treatment! No more demerol, seizures, catheters, anal markers, or the pain from the damn packing. Now I will get about 1 week off to relax and recover before I have to see another doctor, AND celebrate the fact that I made it this far. Then I will probably have a CT Scan and a PET Scan to check on the cancer to see if it is gone or what. If it is gone then i’ll just have to have a pelvic exam every month or so to monitor me. If it is NOT quite gone then I will have surgery to FINALLY remove the shit. It’s about damn time i’m free of this crap. CANCER SUX!

It was such an emotional day today. Monica, my nurse, hugged me and told me that she is so glad that i’m almost done with tears running down her face and I hugged her back and thanked her for helping to save my life, with tears running dowm my face. =] How DO you thank someone for helping you survive??? I wish I knew. Because of her and everyone there I finally feel like I can see the end of the tunnel. I don’t feel so lost or swallowed up anymore. I ALMOST have my life back and I am going to enjoy every second of it and live like there is no tomorrow. I am going to tell every person that I care about just how much I love and cherish them. I’m going to thank every person that was here for me for all of their love and support. The person I want to thank the MOST is my husband. Without him I truly think that I would not have made it through this. I love you cutie! Kusse!